Day 1

I'm going to pretend this is you, haha, how foolish of me. But I'm still going to do it. Last night, I thought I had hope, hope to be able to talk things out, hope to go back to normal, hope to be with you again. So this morning, I woke up pretty early, hoping to get home as fast as I can to talk to you. But when I finally called you, no answer. Again and again, but just the same voice mail. And then again, and you finally picked up. I was really, truthfully happy when I heard your voice because it's so sweet, and it's the voice I want to hear no matter when, where, why, what, and so on. I was looking forward to talking to you again, but obviously, that thought was no where near your head. Maybe I'm a bit clingy and selfish like you said I was, but who wouldn't be when it comes to the love of their life right? You tell me to leave you alone, to not talk to you, to stay 10 feet away, to not have anything to do with you. But on the reality, is that even really possible? Answer is no, but I will try to today/tonight if it'll get me the chance to talk things out with you. It's just kind of hard when knowing your going to be out with some other guy, picking you up, driving you everywhere, going to the party with you, being with you afterwards, and so on. But if that's really what it takes, then I'm going to only have to trust you won't do anything beyond friends status with him. I can trust that because you aren't that type. Just hope that tonight goes well for you and you have the happiest day you can get. But I'll be on the side, waiting for you to maybe even have your eye on me for a second. At least that way, I'll know your thinking about me for a bit. I'll wait and I'll wait and I'll wait more, until you'll come back, I'll be waiting. Hope you have the best day of your life but not for me tonight. Hope to see you tonight happy and smiling since I am not longer capable of doing so. I love you Huynh Tran, and this love will never go away, it really won't. And again, I miss you honey, bye.