Almost There...

Well, tonight didn't end like how I wanted to be, but its still a non-ruined night. So its not bad, right? Today wasn't really the ideal day for me, it was actually pretty bad. So it started pretty well to me, and it went fine. Although you were busy almost the whole day, you still checked up on me once in a while. I get pretty happy when you do that because I know that I'm still on your mind. So it was like that pretty much until you brought up the subject again. The subject of fulfilling the requirements, if I was able to complete it on time. Well, even if I was in your position, I wouldn't believe me either. So I don't blame you for not trusting me about how I'll be able to do all those things I listed. So we argued, we talked, you signed on, you turned your phone off... you know, the usuals. And then I didn't really expect you to come back so I called up my bestfriend to chill. But just as I had made plans, you come back and start talking again. And on and on and I got another chance. But at that point, I had already decided what I'm going to do. Like how I did it last time, spend one last happy moment with you, and leave your life back at one. Yes, it's very hard to do this, way harder than the first time. But I'm pretty sure you'll be fine this time around, your not going to be running after me anymore. No more trying to get me back because I can clearly say "Your in a rush to throw me away." So tonight will be the last time we'll be saying goodnights, our last night together. Thats why I wanted to talk on the phone, but I guess fate is really not on my side. So our last night together and we end it with aim, haha. Kind of lame, but it's ok, better that way I guess. If it was too happy, I might not be able to let go. Thanks for putting up with me for almost 7 months now Karen Huynh Tran. You showed me alot of things and taught me alot, your going to be in my heart just like a tattoo. My love for you will probably be pretty hard to forget, while you'll probably forget it in a night. Whoever said it's going to be easy? It's almost the end honey, just put up with me for one more day and you'll be free from tomorrow on. No more of me being annoying, wasting your time, always making you mad, not knowing how to comfort you, making you look bad, and most importantly, being a bad boyfriend that I am. I thought we would have been forever, guess not. My heart hurts with every word thats being typed, my eyes gets more and more watery while doing this. Maybe my love for you is just too great that it hurts to walk away, but like you said, I'm too selfish. I got to start thinking what you want and not what I want. And the thing you want most is for me to get out of your life. Soon enough honey, just one more day, please let it be happy. I'll remember these past 7 months for the rest of my life, and I'll look back and say, "Damn, I was happy." I'll miss each of every one of your family, and most of all, you. I'll really miss everything that we have done and that we had planned to do. Too many to name, and I'm scared I might have a bucket full of water if I typed all of it. Just one more day honey, just one more day. I can't wait for tomorrow, it will be the last day with you. Time's running out honey, so I'm off now. I'll see you soon, about 8 hrs. Lets make tomorrow the happiest memory we ever had ok? And after that you can forget all about me if you want. Bye honey, I love you.