Girlfriend's 16th

This should have been a special day for the both of us. It started fine, it went fine, and it ended like that, shit. I really tried to have it happy for you, I really did. It's still my fault that I said that stupid ass shit, but you gave me a chance. I took the chance and acted like it was nothing. I really want to just kill myself for it. You offered me, and I took it and threw it on the side like it was shit. I truthfully didn't mean to do it, just I'm not smart enough to think like a normal boyfriend. I'm really truthfully happy because your in my life, the way you care for me, the way you do stuff for me, how you make me lunch even though you have to make it in the early ass morning, the way you put me to sleep, the way you hold me, the way you make me laugh like no others, the way you love me, the way you keep giving me chances when I just keep screwing up, the way you call me to wake me, the way you look at me, the way you would take all your friends' "You could have done better", and "What were you thinking", and so much more and just took it down and stayed with me, the way you would lose friends for me, the way you are, just being you, and theres so much more. I really tried to make it a happy memory today honey, but like you said, no matter how hard i try, I'll fuck it up. It's just that nothings on my side maybe. Or maybe Friday the 13th really is some curse.. who knows? I really hope things will work out between us my dearest Karen Huynh Tran Thi Ngoc Bich, haha I bet your surprised I even remember that name huh? I really hope tomorrow is another day and that we will be the same as we were, lovers. I'm sorry honey for today, I really am. I broke my promise of how you'll get it good today, I'm really sorry. I hope not talking to me will really calm you down and just give you time to think whether I'm an important person in your life or not. Because to me, you'll always be my number 1, always. Know that I won't give up on you, I'll never let go of your hand. "You can run, you can hide, but you can't escape my love." Bye honey I'll be writing to this as if it were you when I miss you. Please do so the same. I love you, bye.